Isaiah 50:2a …Was my arm too short to deliver you? Do I lack the strength to rescue you?…
I am guilty of doubting. If I’m honest, I’m guilty of it much more often than I’d care to admit. Mark 9:24, “I do believe; help my unbelief” is a verse I feel deeply.
Isaiah 50:2b …By a mere rebuke I dry up the sea, I turn rivers into a desert; their fish rot for lack of water and die of thirst.
But as I ponder the what and the why of my struggles with belief and trust, I see my issue comes down to control again. It’s not that I don’t trust God to act, it is that I want Him to act in a very specific way. I want Him to fix it according to my plans. That’s where my problem lies.
Isaiah 50:7 Because the Sovereign Lord helps me, I will not be disgraced….
Lord, Forgive me for my insane need to micromanage the God of all creation. Forgive me that I don’t just want You to make a way where I see no way, but I want You to follow my step-by-step guide. Thank You that You are with me always, that You are making a way, even if it looks nothing like I had planned or imagined. Draw me closer. Help me to trust unconditionally, even when I don’t understand, even when it is not what I would have planned. Thank You for Your sovereignty and love. Amen.
Isaiah 50:9 It is the Sovereign Lord who helps me. Who will condemn me?
Have a blessed day.