The process of reading, studying, and trying to understand…. (devo reflection)

Genesis 44:11 Each of them quickly lowered his sack to the ground and opened it. 

Instead of talking about the scripture today, I want to talk about the commentary I read each day along with the scripture. I’ll be honest. Sometimes I read scripture and have no clue what is going on. Sometimes I don’t understand why something is being emphasized. Reading commentary often helps me make sense of things.

Genesis 44:12 Then the steward proceeded to search, beginning with the oldest and ending with the youngest. And the cup was found in Benjamin’s sack. 

But you might remember that I said I intentionally read commentary that I don’t always agree with and sometimes vehemently disagree with. That’s to, hopefully, keep myself from the echo chamber effect of solidifying my beliefs because there is nothing to challenge them. I am also learning, really slowly, to sit with questions I don’t have answers to. That’s still really difficult for me.

Genesis 44:13 At this, they tore their clothes. Then they all loaded their donkeys and returned to the city.

Precious Savior, Thank You for the process of reading, studying, and trying to understand Your word. Thank You that some days You reveal truths, some days You help me see prejudices, some days You leave me with questions so that I will continue to read, study, and seek You. Help me, every day, to draw closer to You and shine Your light. Amen.

Genesis 44:14 Joseph was still in the house when Judah and his brothers came in, and they threw themselves to the ground before him.

Have a blessed day.