Gen 18:2 …When [Abraham] saw them, he hurried from the entrance of his tent to meet them and bowed low to the ground.
God uses these daily reflections to work on my heart, and what He is currently helping me to understand is that I am still caught up in the struggle between doing and being. And while my head knows my value to God has NOTHING to do with what I DO but only who I AM—His deeply loved child, the reality is that I struggle to just BE in His presence, knowing that He loves me because I am His and not because of anything I do.
Gen 18:4 “Let a little water be brought, and then you may all wash your feet and rest under this tree.”
I feel like I am hard-wired to be kind and encouraging, to do for God and others, but I have a hard time just being, just resting in Him. I’ve also noticed that the older I get, the more quickly I hit compassion fatigue—feeling utterly depleted and useless, needing desperately to recharge because I have given so much. I feel like these two issues are intricately related, perhaps because I am trying to work through my own power and not His? Jesus, Help me.
Gen 18:5 “Let me get you something to eat, so you can be refreshed and then go on your way—now that you have come to your servant.”
Lord, Thank You for this day, for this scripture, for helping me see the areas where I still need work, understanding, healing. I know I am Your deeply loved child and that my value is in my being and not my doing. I know that You gave me this encouraging, compassionate heart to comfort Your people. But I also realize there is still a disconnect, which is keeping me from Your peace. Jesus, Help me. Amen.
Gen 18:8 …While they ate, he stood near them under a tree.
Have a blessed day.
My faith, my life, my teaching–it's all a work in progress.