Psalm 51:10 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
As I write this reflection, there is a light fog outside, and I have a dull headache. These two occurrences seem a fitting analogy for where I seem to be currently. For as long as I have been taking time in the mornings to talk with my Savior, I have felt His presence with me keenly. By the time I finish my reading and prayer time, my reflection has usually written itself. It truly often feels like He writes them for me. It’s a hard sensation to describe but a beautiful thing to be a part of.
Psalm 51:11 Do not cast me away from Your presence or take Your Holy Spirit from me.
But lately I’ve felt this sense of separation, a light fog, a dull ache, that seems to separate me from that easy relationship with my Savior. He’s still with me—I know because He has promised to never leave me—but that feeling of ease and companionship isn’t currently there, and I miss it terribly.
Psalm 51:12 Restore to me the joy of Your salvation and grant me a willing spirit to sustain me.
Lord, Thank You for this day and for the ability to recognize that You are still with me, that You still love me fiercely, even when things feel so off. The holidays are hard, Lord, the hiking trip is looming, the stress at work is certainly in full force. There are so many things that could explain why I feel this separation, but what I desperately want is a restored relationship with You. I want to feel Your presence with me daily. I want that easy relationship we have shared for so long. Help me, Lord, to realign myself with You. Draw me closer. Renew my spirit. Amen.
Psalm 46:10 …”Be still, and know that I am God….”
Have a blessed day.