A Work in Progress….

Genesis 34:1 Now Dinah, the daughter Leah had borne to Jacob, went out to visit the women of the land. 

Commentary says, ““Unattached young women were considered fair game in cities of the time,” laying some of the blame of this heinous act on Dinah for going out without familial males to protect her, laying some of the blame on Jacob and Leah for not being sure she was supervised, and laying some of the blame on Shechem for violating her.

Genesis 34:2 When Shechem son of Hamor the Hivite, the ruler of that area, saw her, he took her and raped her. 

The unfortunate truth is that many women today face similar violation–men who take what is not theirs, who say the females were “asking for it” in their dress or behavior, who, like Shechem, speak tenderly and claim to love their victims yet violate them all the same.

Genesis 34:3 His heart was drawn to Dinah daughter of Jacob; he loved the young woman and spoke tenderly to her.

Precious Savior, My heart breaks for all who have been shamed and violated in this world. Be with them. Help them to heal and move forward. Be a light in their darkness, a peace in their distress. Help them to feel Your presence. Always. Amen.

Genesis 34: 4 And Shechem said to his father Hamor, “Get me this girl as my wife.”

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Genesis 33:16 So that day Esau started on his way back to Seir. 

Name changes in the Bible are often used to show a new relationship with God or a new identity in God, so I am again struck by the fact that Jacob, who was renamed Israel after wrestling with God in Chapter 32, is still being called Jacob.

Genesis 33:17 Jacob, however, went to Sukkoth, where he built a place for himself and made shelters for his livestock. That is why the place is called Sukkoth. 

It’s not surprising, I guess, because he is still, in many ways, acting like Jacob–half obedience, quasi-change. He gives his brother gifts, but he doesn’t fully trust him. He’s listening to God, but he’s only partially obeying.

Genesis 33:18 After Jacob came from Paddan Aram, he arrived safely at the city of Shechem in Canaan and camped within sight of the city. 

Precious Savior, Again, I find comfort in the fact that You can use all things for our good and Your glory if we let You. I don’t want to be like Jacob/Israel–only partially listening and semi-obeying, but I am so thankful that even with all of his faulty humanity, You were able to use him in a powerful way. That means You can use me, too. Thank You. Amen.

Genesis 33:19-20 For a hundred pieces of silver, he bought from the sons of Hamor, the father of Shechem, the plot of ground where he pitched his tent. There he set up an altar and called it El Elohe Israel.

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Genesis 33:1 Jacob looked up and there was Esau, coming with his four hundred men; so he divided the children among Leah, Rachel and the two female servants. 

After Jacob wrestles with God, there is evidence of growth–he does go from the back of the group to the front to meet Esau, though he still shows favor to Rachel and her son by placing them in the rear of the wives and children, which offer a bit of protection if Esau has murderous tendencies.

Genesis 33:2 He put the female servants and their children in front, Leah and her children next, and Rachel and Joseph in the rear. 

But Esau not only meets Jacob, he runs to meet him, not only welcomes Jacob, embraces him, throws his arms around his neck and kisses him. The problems of the past are just that–past. For the first time maybe ever, these two are meeting as brothers, as friends.

Genesis 33:3 He himself went on ahead and bowed down to the ground seven times as he approached his brother.

Precious Savior, Thank You for the example of love and forgiveness we see in today’s scripture. I’m not sure I completely understand it, but I don’t have to. You understand it and have shown me what’s possible with Your love. Thank You. Amen.

Genesis 33:4 But Esau ran to meet Jacob and embraced him; he threw his arms around his neck and kissed him. And they wept.

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Genesis 32:27 The man asked him, “What is your name?” “Jacob,” he answered.

Commentary says “From this point on, this son of Isaac will be called Jacob twice as often as he is called Israel.” To me this means that while Jacob wrestled with God and won, thus earning the name Israel (which, I’ll be honest, is still something I struggle with in this text), there’s still a lot of the old, the Jacob, left in him.

Genesis 32:28-29 Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, because you have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.” Jacob said, “Please tell me your name.” But he replied, “Why do you ask my name?” Then he blessed him there.

That hefty dose of Jacob that is apparently still in him, though, gives me hope. I know that no matter how hard I try, I am still human and fallible. I still fail daily. I want to be good, to shine His light, and there are glimmers of success, but there is still so much of the human in me that it’s never perfect.

Genesis 32:30 So Jacob called the place Peniel, saying, “It is because I saw God face to face, and yet my life was spared.”

Precious Savior, The one message I am getting loud and clear from Genesis during this reading is that I do not have to be perfect for You to use me. You can and will and do use the human, the fallible, the messy, in Your kingdom work. That gives me such hope. Thank You, Jesus. Amen.

Genesis 32:31-32 The sun rose above him as he passed Peniel, and he was limping because of his hip. Therefore to this day the Israelites do not eat the tendon attached to the socket of the hip, because the socket of Jacob’s hip was touched near the tendon.

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Genesis 32:22 That night Jacob got up and took his two wives, his two female servants and his eleven sons and crossed the ford of the Jabbok.  

I could probably spend weeks on this section, reading, studying, pondering. There is so much I don’t understand here. But we are barely halfway through Genesis, so I want to focus on the piece of today’s scripture that I do understand–Jacob needed to be alone, away from all the noise and distraction, before he could deal with the internal baggage he carried.

Genesis 32:23-24 After he had sent them across the stream, he sent over all his possessions. So Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak.

It is easy to ignore things when you are busy. Issues, nudges, problems–push them all aside and focus on the task at hand that must be completed. But when we are alone, when all the other things are out of our way, then we are left with ourselves and Jesus. It can be a really uncomfortable place. But it is the only way to truly die to self and allow Jesus to lead.

Genesis 32:25 When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man. 

Precious Savior, All of us have or will experience a dark night of the soul where we wrestle with You over our wants and desires. It is not until we die to self, let go of the things that we are holding on to so tightly, that we can allow you to fully work through our lives. That struggle is so painful, but You are sovereign, loving, compassionate, merciful. Thank You that You love us too much to leave us to ourselves. Be with us in our struggle. Amen.

Genesis 32:26 Then the man said, “Let me go, for it is daybreak.” But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.”

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Genesis 32:17-18 He instructed the one in the lead: “When my brother Esau meets you and asks, ‘Who do you belong to, and where are you going, and who owns all these animals in front of you?’ then you are to say, ‘They belong to your servant Jacob. They are a gift sent to my lord Esau, and he is coming behind us.’ ”

If I’m honest, these verses support what commentary was saying yesterday. I thought maybe Jacob was just trying to make reparations for his trickery all those years ago, but today’s verses have the feeling of a straight-up bribe. 

Genesis 32:19 He also instructed the second, the third and all the others who followed the herds: “You are to say the same thing to Esau when you meet him. 

I want to say that yesterday I was giving Jacob the benefit of the doubt, willing to believe that Jacob felt he owed his brother something for tricking him out of his birthright blessing. Today has the distinct feeling of “If I shower him with enough wealth, he’ll be so dazzled that he won’t be angry anymore.” That is definitely not trusting God.

Genesis 32:20 And be sure to say, ‘Your servant Jacob is coming behind us.’ ” For he thought, “I will pacify him with these gifts I am sending on ahead; later, when I see him, perhaps he will receive me.” 

Precious Savior, You know trust is hard for me. You know I have a long, sordid history of turning things over to You only to take them right back up again and try to proceed on my own. I love You. I do trust You. I know that You will never leave me nor forsake me and that because I am Yours, in the end, all will be well. Help me to trust You in the daily little things that I have the bad habit of trying to take care of on my own. Help me, Jesus. Amen.

Genesis 32:21 So Jacob’s gifts went on ahead of him, but he himself spent the night in the camp.

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Genesis 32:13 He spent the night there, and from what he had with him he selected a gift for his brother Esau:  

Commentary says that because Jacob puts the animals, the clear gift/bribe for his brother, in front, that shows that Jacob still doesn’t trust God because if he trusted God, he’d be at the front of the pack. To me, though, it seems more like, “God helps those who help themselves.”

Genesis 32:14 two hundred female goats and twenty male goats, two hundred ewes and twenty rams, 

What I mean is this: Jacob knows that he was terrible to Esau, tricked him more than once. He has prayed to God, fervently, earnestly. Now he is using his available resources (the livestock) to offer reparation to his brother for all that he took so many years ago.

Genesis 32:15 thirty female camels with their young, forty cows and ten bulls, and twenty female donkeys and ten male donkeys.

Precious Savior, Perspective is such an interesting thing. Thank You that I see so many different perspectives each morning when I read Your word. Commentary thinks Jacob isn’t trusting because he sends livestock first. I think, maybe, he is trying to make amends for his behavior before and that’s why he does it, so his brother knows he’s changed. Regardless, help me to draw closer to You as I read, study, and ponder Your word. Amen.

Genesis 32:16 He put them in the care of his servants, each herd by itself, and said to his servants, “Go ahead of me, and keep some space between the herds.”

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Genesis 32:9 Then Jacob prayed, “O God of my father Abraham, God of my father Isaac, Lord, you who said to me, ‘Go back to your country and your relatives, and I will make you prosper,’  

Sometimes I wonder why I read the commentary I do each morning because I disagree with so many of the things this commentary says. Commentary indicates that what makes Jacob’s prayer so strong, among other things, is the fact that Jacob quotes God’s words, God’s promises back to Him. It seems to indicate that if you just pray enough of the Bible’s wording, you’ll get your way.

Genesis 32:10 I am unworthy of all the kindness and faithfulness you have shown your servant. I had only my staff when I crossed this Jordan, but now I have become two camps. 

That, to me, feels very legalistic. If I just pray enough of God’s words, if I just pray hard enough, long enough, if I just have enough people praying for me…, then I will get my way. That’s not how God works. He’s not in heaven making tally marks on a wall. “What a shame. If you had only had two more people praying for you, I would have given you what you wanted.” That’s not my God.

Genesis 32:11 Save me, I pray, from the hand of my brother Esau, for I am afraid he will come and attack me, and also the mothers with their children.

Precious Savior, Thank You that You know our hearts, that You aren’t legalistic, that You don’t have an arbitrary number or word in mind that if we only hit it, You’ll give us what we want. Thank You that You love us fiercely, that You know our hearts intimately, that You will never leave us nor forsake us–Never!–no matter what we face or how we react. Thank You. Amen.

Genesis 32:12 But you have said, ‘I will surely make you prosper and will make your descendants like the sand of the sea, which cannot be counted.’”

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