2 Chron 33:1-2 Manasseh…ruled in Jerusalem fifty-five years. He did evil in the eyes of the LORD, following the detestable practices of the nations the LORD had driven out before the Israelites.
Commentary on this chapter says, “It has been said that God speaks to us in our pleasures and he shouts to us in our pains.” This quote put me in mind of pride and humility and the rage I am still battling. It has occurred to me, finally, that perhaps my pride is at the root of these awful feelings.
2 Chron 33:10-11 The LORD spoke to Manasseh and his people, but they paid no attention. So the LORD brought against them the army commanders of the king of Assyria, who took Manasseh prisoner, put a hook in his nose, bound him with bronze shackles and took him to Babylon.
These emotions certainly aren’t godly. They aren’t drawing me closer to my Savior. The opposite is true. I am so angry, so frustrated, so exhausted that I’m withdrawing from everyone. But I’m not being targeted or attacked. It’s dumb luck and circumstances beyond my control. However, I’m taking it all very personally.
2 Chron 33:12 In his distress he sought the favor of the LORD his God and humbled himself greatly….
Lord, Thank You for this day and this scripture. Thank You for the reminder that these emotions are separating me from You, and that’s not ok. Help me to humble myself before You, Lord. Help me to park my feelings of personal injustice and self-importance, leading me to feel so terribly affronted. Help me break down and break through these emotions that are hardening my heart and separating me from You. Draw me closer, Lord. Grant me Your peace. Amen.
2 Chron 33:13 And when he prayed to Him, the LORD was moved by his entreaty and listened to his plea; so He brought him back to Jerusalem and to his kingdom. Then Manasseh knew that the LORD is God.
Have a blessed day.