Genesis 32:1 Jacob also went on his way, and the angels of God met him.
It would appear that Jacob has changed. Sadly, it pains me to say that. He tricked his father and his brother. He tricked Laban. He is a trickster. Period. The idea that he can change, that he has changed, rankles me a bit, which is disconcerting.
Genesis 32:2 When Jacob saw them, he said, “This is the camp of God!” So he named that place Mahanaim.
Perhaps my attitude stems from my trust issues. What if I embrace that Jacob has changed and then he tricks again? Then he has fooled me, I look like a fool. Not cool. Perhaps my attitude stems from my judgmental side, which is much more developed than I like to admit. Perhaps my attitude stems from the fear that I, who mess up daily, will one day mess up so much that God won’t welcome me with open arms. I have no idea.
Genesis 32:3 Jacob sent messengers ahead of him to his brother Esau in the land of Seir, the country of Edom.
Precious Savior, Thank You for allowing me to admit my dubiousness at Jacob’s change and for allowing me to examine the complicated feelings that I have over his behavior and potential transformation. Thank You most of all for Your fierce, unconditional love of all of us, no matter what. Help me, Jesus. Amen.
Genesis 32:4 He instructed them: “This is what you are to say to my lord Esau: ‘Your servant Jacob says, I have been staying with Laban and have remained there till now.
Have a blessed day.