The doubters in the Gospels…. (devo reflection)

Matthew 28:16-17 Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. 

As someone who doubts and questions and examines as a routine part of life, I appreciate hearing about the doubters in the Gospels–why they doubted, how they were received, how they learned to move forward. I grew up believing (and whether I came to this conclusion myself or was taught it, I still don’t know) that doubt was weak faith. So hearing in multiple Gospels that the original disciples doubted brings me comfort that it’s not just me.

Matthew 28:18 Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 

And I know with certainty that when I come to Jesus with my doubts and fears, when I lay them before Him, when I surrender those doubts and fears to Him again and again and again, wrestling with myself to surrender them completely, my faith is strengthened, my relationship with Christ is strengthened.

Matthew 28:19-20a Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you.

Lord, There is so much that I don’t understand. There are so many things that bring me doubt, fear,  grief,  pain, bitterness. Thank You that I can freely come to You with my doubts, without fear of rejection or worse. Thank You that I can be honest with You about how I am feeling. Thank You that You are bigger than my feelings, bigger than my fears, bigger than my doubts. Help me to trust You always, even when I don’t understand. Amen.

Matthew 28:20b  And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

Have a blessed day. I love you.

Honestly and authentically…. (devo reflection)

Matthew 28:16 Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. 

Sometimes I feel like I can either worship or doubt, but the disciples here show that I can do both. And I think that the reason they can is directly tied to Jesus’s promise that “…surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” During the walk to the cross, the disciples doubted. They ran. They denied. And here Jesus is AFTER these events, telling them “…surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

Matthew 28:17 When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. 

The disciples *know* they can worship even if they doubt because Jesus has already seen them at their worst, and He still went ahead of them to Galilee, He still loved, accepted, and incorporated them in His ministry. He can do that with me, too. I can worship even when I am afraid, confused, angry, hurt, even when Jesus seems so very far away. I can still worship Him. I can offer my doubts and fears and anger up to Him. I can praise Him through the storm.

Matthew 28:18 Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 

Lord, This passage speaks to me about worshiping You honestly and authentically. You don’t want me to hide my doubts and fears. You want me to bring them to You so that You can allay them, so that I can worship You with my whole heart. Thank You, Jesus, and help me to always be honest with You. Amen.

Matthew 28:19-20 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

Have a blessed day.

Hope and assurance…. (devo reflection)

Matthew 28:11 While the women were on their way, some of the guards went into the city and reported to the chief priests everything that had happened. 

The guards were afraid that they would get in trouble. The chief priests were afraid that people would actually believe that Jesus, whom they had tried to discredit for His entire ministry, had risen from the dead just as He said. Once again, money is involved in the plot. But God…

Matthew 28:12-13  When the chief priests had met with the elders and devised a plan, they gave the soldiers a large sum of money, telling them, “You are to say, ‘His disciples came during the night and stole him away while we were asleep.’

In the tale of this coverup, Hebrews 11:1 comes to mind–”Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” Part of faith is belief. Part of belief is the fact that Jesus’s death and resurrection isn’t an accepted fact to all. As a Christian, as a believer of Christ, I choose to believe that He is who He says He is, that He does what He says He does, that He keeps His promises. That’s faith.

Matthew 28:14 If this report gets to the governor, we will satisfy him and keep you out of trouble.” 

Lord, Faith, hope, and love are central tenets of our faith, but love–You–are at the core. Thank you for my faith, which is so strong, for hope, which is so powerful, but most of all, thank You for Your great love, which gave all so that I can have eternity with You. Thank You. Amen.

Matthew 28:15 So the soldiers took the money and did as they were instructed. And this story has been widely circulated among the Jews to this very day.

Have a blessed day.

Suddenly Jesus met them…. (devo reflection)

Matthew 28:9  Suddenly Jesus met them. “Greetings,” he said. They came to him, clasped his feet and worshiped him. 

The angel has just told the women to go and tell the disciples that Jesus will meet them in Galilee. The women are afraid yet filled with joy. And suddenly, there is Jesus. He is not disguised. They are not kept from recognizing Him. They have no doubt about who He is. They clasp His feet and worship Him.

Matthew 28:10 Then Jesus said to them, “Do not be afraid. Go and tell my brothers to go to Galilee; there they will see me.”

I just find it fascinating that the women see Him, know Him, worship Him immediately when the disciples all doubt at first, though Thomas is the one whose doubt is most pronounced and remembered. There is no doubt for these women who love Jesus so, who are afraid yet filled with joy.

Matthew 28:11 While the women were on their way, some of the guards went into the city and reported to the chief priests everything that had happened. 

Lord, Thank You for those times when Your presence in a situation is so very clear to me. Help me to look for You, see You, glorify You always, no matter my circumstances. Amen.

Matthew 28:12-13 When the chief priests had met with the elders and devised a plan, they gave the soldiers a large sum of money, 13 telling them, “You are to say, ‘His disciples came during the night and stole him away while we were asleep.’

Have a blessed day. I love you.

Minor characters…. (devo reflection)

Matthew 28:5 The angel said to the women, “Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified.

It’s easy to lose sight of the minor characters in the Easter story, but I am reminded with today’s scripture that Jesus has a role for all of us and that every role we serve in God’s eternal narrative is important.

Matthew 28:6 He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay.

The Centurion realized “Truly this man was the Son of God;” Joseph of Arimathea boldly asked for Jesus’s body and buried Him; Mary Magdalene and the other Mary, go to grieve and anoint the body with spices yet are used to remind the disciples that there is work to do. These people–who at a glance seem almost inconsequential–are crucial to the Easter story, the Christian story. And so are we.

Matthew 28:7 Then go quickly and tell his disciples: ‘He has risen from the dead and is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him.’ Now I have told you.”

Jesus, Let me be proud to play whatever part You have for me in Your eternal story. Let me shine Your light and encourage Your people. Let me hurry away, even if I am afraid, filled with joy. Let me boldly tell Your people of Your great love. Amen.

Matthew 28:8 So the women hurried away from the tomb, afraid yet filled with joy, and ran to tell his disciples.

Have a blessed day.

He has risen, just as he said…. (devo reflection)

Matthew 28:5-6 The angel said to the women, “Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay.

Some mornings are more chaotic than others. Some days are harder to navigate. Some weeks and months and seasons of life are really, really difficult. But on this Easter morning, Jesus reminds us that no matter how difficult our current circumstances, He is with us, alive, sovereign, loving, merciful. Thank You, Jesus.

Luke 24:9 & 11 When they came back from the tomb, they told all these things to the Eleven and to all the others. But they did not believe the women, because their words seemed to them like nonsense.

On this Easter morning, I urge you to give yourself grace upon grace, no matter your perceived failings. The story leading up to Christ’s resurrection is full of human doubting, missteps, failures, yet Jesus uses every single one of the disciples for His ultimate glory.

John 20: 25 So the other disciples told [Thomas], “We have seen the Lord!” But he said to them, “Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.”

Lord, some mornings, some days, some seasons are just difficult. Thank You for the hope of this Easter season. Help us to spread Your hope, Your love, Your mercy to everyone we encounter. Thank You, Lord. Thank You. Amen.

Luke 24:36 While they were still talking about this, Jesus himself stood among them and said to them, “Peace be with you.”

Happy Easter. He is risen indeed.

Jesus took my place, too…. (devo reflection)

Matthew 27:20 But the chief priests and the elders persuaded the crowd to ask for Barabbas and to have Jesus executed.

Today was one of those days that as I read scripture, a reflection plan was forming in my mind, but as I read commentary, God whispered, “This is what I want you to see, to think about.” Jesus—the innocent Lamb—died in place of Barabbas—an insurrectionist and murderer.

Matthew 27:21 “Which of the two do you want me to release to you?” asked the governor. “Barabbas,” they answered.

When I read this scripture, I am usually so caught up in what they are doing to Jesus that I don’t consider Barabbas, but Barabbas *is* me, and you, and all of us. He’s absolutely guilty, deserving of punishment, but he is set free because of Jesus. I want to ask, “What does that feel like?”, but I know—I *know*—because Jesus took my place, too.

Matthew 27:22 “What shall I do, then, with Jesus who is called the Messiah?” Pilate asked. They all answered, “Crucify him!”

Lord, Thank You for this new perspective on Your sacrifice and my salvation. I am Barabbas. I am guilty. I deserve the punishment. Yet You take my place. “Thank You” is inadequate. Help me to love others as You love me—deeply, fiercely, completely, and even when they don’t deserve it. Amen.

Matthew 27:26 Then he released Barabbas to them. But he had Jesus flogged, and handed him over to be crucified.

Have a blessed day.

Fully consider the consequences…. (devo reflection)

Matthew 27:3 When Judas, who had betrayed him, saw that Jesus was condemned, he was seized with remorse and returned the thirty pieces of silver to the chief priests and the elders.

Have you ever been so focused on something—doing something, having something—that you didn’t fully appreciate the consequences? Matthew 26:16 says that from the time Judas agreed to betray Jesus, Judas watched for an opportunity to hand him over. He was so focused on what he was planning to do that it doesn’t seem he fully considered the consequences.

Matthew 27:4a “I have sinned,” he said, “for I have betrayed innocent blood.”

But Jesus does. He even says, at the moment of Judas’s betrayal, “Friend, do what you came to do.” Friend…One more reminder of who Judas is called to be in Christ, a reminder he didn’t heed until it was too late to turn back.

Matthew 27:4b “What is that to us?” they replied. “That’s your responsibility.”

Lord, In the moment of his betrayal, You call Judas friend, You strive to remind him of who he is in You. But he doesn’t listen until it’s too late. I am just as guilty of betraying You in so many ways. Help me to hear Your voice, help me heed Your reminder of who I am in You, who You call me to be. Help me seek You always. Thank You for Your mercy and compassion. Amen.

Matthew 27:5 So Judas threw the money into the temple and left. Then he went away and hanged himself.

Have a blessed day.

More than the sum of our mistakes…. (devo reflection)

Matthew 26:49-50 Going at once to Jesus, Judas said, “Greetings, Rabbi!” and kissed him. Jesus replied, “Do what you came for, friend.”

These are Jesus’s disciples: one who betrays, one who is impetuous, who acts rashly, one who flees naked. Jesus knows exactly how this scene will go, exactly how these disciples will act, and yet they are His chosen, His beloved. He knows they are more than the sum of their mistakes. He loves them just because they are His. This is the foundation on which He built His church.

John 18:10-11 Then Simon Peter, who had a sword, drew it and struck the high priest’s servant, cutting off his right ear…. Jesus commanded Peter, “Put your sword away! Shall I not drink the cup the Father has given me?”

We serve a loving, compassionate, merciful Savior. The grace He gives His human, fallible disciples (and His persecutors), He freely gives us. We don’t have to—we can’t—do anything to be enough in His eyes. He loves us simply because we are His. Period.

Luke 22:50-51 And one of them struck the servant of the high priest, cutting off his right ear. But Jesus answered, “No more of this!” And he touched the man’s ear and healed him.

Lord, It is so easy to fall into the lies of the world—that we have to earn Your love, that we have to do something to be worthy of Your mercy. You love us deeply, fiercely just because we are Yours. That simple truth is hard for us to comprehend and trust. Help us, Lord. And thank You for Your undeserved grace. Amen.

Mark 14:51-52 A young man, wearing nothing but a linen garment, was following Jesus. When they seized him, he fled naked, leaving his garment behind.

Have a blessed day.

He knows all of it, yet He loves them still…. (devo reflection)

John 13:22 His disciples stared at one another, at a loss to know which of them he meant.

Commentary today focused on “the disciple whom Jesus loved” and the intimate relationship implied even though all of the disciples abandoned Jesus in His hour of need. Here’s what I struggle with: Jesus knows, yet He loves them anyway. He knows Judas will betray Him. He knows Peter will disown Him. He knows all of it, yet He loves them still.

John 13:23 One of them, the disciple whom Jesus loved, was reclining next to him.

Not only does He love them anyway, He encourages them. He says in Luke 22:32 “But I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers.” In Matthew 22:39 He says, “Love your neighbor as yourself.” I don’t know about you, but I don’t live this level of self-love and compassion.

John 13:24 Simon Peter motioned to this disciple and said, “Ask him which one he means.”

Lord, You knew that the disciples would betray and abandon You, doubt You, doubt themselves, run away. And yet You loved them anyway. You encouraged them to strengthen their brothers once they got themselves straightened out. Help me to show that level of love and compassion to myself and all those I encounter. Help me to fully live the truth of Your fierce love for me. Amen.

John 13:25 Leaning back against Jesus, he asked him, “Lord, who is it?”

Have a blessed day.