This is the work…. (devo reflection)

Matthew 18:10 “See that you do not despise one of these little ones. For I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of my Father in heaven.

I’m back to wrestling with this section of scripture again, particularly verses 12-14. I see parallels between this scripture and the parable of the Prodigal Son. In both, I see myself as the one doing the right thing. In both, I’m a little indignant about all that was done for the one who didn’t.

Matthew 18:12 “What do you think? If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off?

In truth, while I often do what’s expected of me, I am also prone to wandering off, taking my share and striking out on my own. I’ve talked (ad nauseam, it seems) about my proclivity to lay my worries at Jesus’s feet and snatch them right back up again. This seems like a similar issue.

Matthew 18:13 And if he finds it, truly I tell you, he is happier about that one sheep than about the ninety-nine that did not wander off.

Jesus, Thank You for helping me see that I am the one who wanders, not the 99 who stay. I am the prodigal, striking out on my own, doing my will, not the one who stays with the Father. Forgive me–for my arrogance that that was not me, for my judgment as I thought I was doing the work. This is the work, Lord. Examining myself and seeing where I need to surrender to You. Thank You. Help me. Amen.

Matthew 18:14 In the same way your Father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should perish.

Have a blessed day.

Your Father in Heaven…. (devo reflection)

Matthew 7:9 “Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 

I find it interesting that in today’s scripture, I automatically zero in on verse 11 and the word evil. It gets my hackles up. Evil?!? I am *not* evil!!! How dare Jesus call me evil?!?!? And, yes, as you would imagine, that “How dare Jesus…?” stopped me in my tracks. I’m not evil. I’m not the devil incarnate, but I’m certainly not Jesus. And that’s His point.

Matthew 7:10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 

I *am* a parent. I *do* love my children fiercely. I want to give them good things in life, a leg up, a firm foundation. All of these things are true. AND I’m a hot mess. So if *my* intentions and motives are this positive with all of *my* flaws, “how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask Him!” That is Jesus’s point.

Matthew 7:11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! 

Precious Savior, Thank You for Your fierce love of Your children. Thank You for Your willingness to get my hackles up to get my attention and drive home Your point. Thank You for using an analogy that I understand on a gut level. We are Your children. You love us unconditionally. You want to give us good things. All we have to do is ask. Thank You. Amen.

Matthew 7:12 So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets.

Have a blessed day.

My own tendency to wander…. (devo reflection)

I don’t want to miss God’s Joy…. (devo reflection)

Matthew 11:28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 

I’ve mentioned the Jesus Calling devotional before, a timely gift from a sweet friend. Today it brought me more much needed wisdom: “Do not miss the Joy of My Presence by carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders.” As with many, I’ve got stuff that I am dealing with, stuff that brings sadness, masked by anger. Stuff that makes me feel backed into a corner, on the defensive.

Matthew 11:29a Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart…  

But this morning’s reflection brought into focus that when I allow myself to feel backed into a corner, I am absolutely missing God’s joy, and I’m not ok with that. I used to literally count my blessings when I got into this negative space: 1. A roof over my head. 2. Breath in my lungs. 3. People who love me…. Looks like I need to go back to those basics because I DO NOT want to miss God’s joy because I am too busy carrying burdens that I was never meant to carry.

Matthew 11:29b …and you will find rest for your souls.

Jesus, Help me. Thank You for the realization that my actions and reactions are causing me to miss Your joy, that my actions and reactions are piling on burdens that You don’t intend for me to carry. Help me to find rest for my soul in You alone. Help me to choose Your joy. Amen.

Matthew 11:30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Have a blessed day.

Lord, Forgive me…. (devo reflection)

Exodus 32:1 When the people saw that Moses was so long in coming down from the mountain, they gathered around Aaron and said, “Come, make us gods who will go before us. As for this fellow Moses who brought us up out of Egypt, we don’t know what has happened to him.”

I struggle with laying my worries at Jesus’s feet and leaving them there. I put them down easily enough, but I usually only step away for a beat or two before I pick them back up. If I want to give myself the benefit of the doubt, I would probably say that I felt like I need to *do* as well as *be,* so I pick them up because I don’t want Jesus to perceive me as a slacker. I’m not sure the truth is that kind, though.

Exodus 32:2 Aaron answered them, “Take off the gold earrings that your wives, your sons and your daughters are wearing, and bring them to me.” 

I see myself in the Israelites’ behavior today. Laying  my troubles at Jesus’s feet is like the Israelites waiting while Moses goes up the mountain. Me taking those troubles up again is like the Israelites asking Aaron to make them an idol because, essentially, Moses is taking too long. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak (Matt 26:41).

Exodus 32:3 So all the people took off their earrings and brought them to Aaron. 

Lord, Forgive me for my impatience and self-reliance. Forgive me for my fear and doubt. I do trust You, Lord. Help me to trust You more, to lay my worries at Your feet and leave them there. Period. “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!” (Mark 9:24). Amen.

Exodus 32:4 He took what they handed him and made it into an idol cast in the shape of a calf, fashioning it with a tool. Then they said, “These are your gods, Israel, who brought you up out of Egypt.”

Have a blessed day.

The beautiful breadcrumb trail of God’s love…. (devo reflection)

Matthew 6:25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes?

The scripture for my church’s daily devotionals this week comes from Exodus and the grumbling Israelites. (See yesterday’s reflection.) And as I proofed tomorrow’s devo this morning, it struck to me what a gift it is that God didn’t just smite the Israelites in their grumbling. He could have. And yet, He responded with compassion.

Matthew 6:26a Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them….

God feeds the birds of the air. He fed the grumbling Israelites. What is up with me that I still struggle to trust when I am afraid, when I don’t understand? Thankfully, God responds to me with compassion as well. He will still guide me, guard me, even if I grumble, even if I fear. But if I can trust, He will not only guide and guard me, He will also grant me His peace.

Matthew 6:26b …Are you not much more valuable than they?

Lord, I long for Your peace. Forgive my misguided fear and grumbling. Thank you for the beautiful breadcrumb trail of Your love that You provide daily if I will but pay attention. I do trust You, Lord, but I am also afraid. Help me to lay my fear at Your feet so that I can be wrapped in Your peace. Amen.

Matthew 6:27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?

Have a blessed day.

Just love everyone…. (devo reflection)

Matthew 22:36 “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?”

We are commanded to love God and love others. Again I am reminded of the billboard from my memories that reads, “Just love everyone. I’ll sort them out later. ~God.” Simple, but not easy.

Matthew 22:37Jesus replied: “ ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ 

But we tend to put up all kinds of barriers and conditions to God’s mandate to love others. (And make no mistake, when I say “we,” I include myself.) If someone looks, loves, votes, worships, lives differently, it’s easy to dismiss them as not worthy of love. Jesus, help us.

Matthew 22:38 This is the first and greatest commandment. 

Lord, You ask us to be Your hands and feet in this world, but sometimes we forget we aren’t the judge and jury. Help us to get past ourselves, past whatever barriers keep us from loving as you love. Help us to love you and love others. Period. Always. Amen.

Matthew 22:39 And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’

Have a blessed day.

My refuge and strength…. (devo reflection)

Psalm 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.

Psalm 46:1 brings to mind Jesus’s words in Matthew 28:20, “And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” Jesus is our refuge, our strength, our ever-present help in trouble because He is with us. Always. We learn that truth in religious education, but it doesn’t really become rock-solid faith until that’s all we have left to hold on to.

Psalm 46:2a Therefore we will not fear… 

Here’s my big issue: When I ask for help, I have a really clear idea of what that help should look like. I’m a planner. I have lots of ideas about how things should be. But God’s thoughts are not my thoughts. His ways are far beyond anything I can imagine (Isaiah 55:8). So while I’m freaking out because things are not as they should be, Jesus, my refuge and strength, my ever-present help in trouble is working all things for my good and His glory (Romans 8:28).

Psalm 46:2b …though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,

Lord, There are so many things in this world that I don’t understand. But You don’t ask me to understand. You ask me to trust You. Help me to trust that You are with me always, even to the end of the age. Help me to trust that You are my refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Help me to trust that the worst thing isn’t the last thing and that Your ways are far beyond anything I could imagine. Help me to trust You. Always. Amen.

Psalm 46:3 though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.

Have a blessed day. I love you.

Faith as small as a mustard seed…. (devo reflection)

Matthew 17:19 Then the disciples came to Jesus in private and asked, “Why couldn’t we drive it out?”

I read an incredibly interesting piece by Nadia Bolz-Weber entitled “It’s a low bar (thank God)” this morning on this section of scripture. (I encourage you to google it. It’s worth the read.) She, like me, has always read this scripture as a rebuke from Jesus about the lack of faith in the disciples. Yet she talks about the significance of Greek grammar tenses and comes to see this scripture in a new light, as a reminder of the importance of the foundation of faith that we *do* have, no matter how small it feels.

Matthew 17:20a He replied, “Because you have so little faith….

My internal critic is really loud. She is mean and caustic. She berates me at every opportunity for all the things I cannot do well….and there are so many things. But Jesus, with His quiet voice of truth, is always there, whispering to my heart that He is with me, that I am His, that I am enough simply because I am His. That truth is my mustard seed, and it’s big enough to sustain me–He is big enough to sustain me–no matter what trials I face. Thank You, Jesus.

Matthew 17:20b …Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move….

Lord, This world is so loud, my doubts are so loud, my failures are so very loud. Help me to cut through the noise and chaos of life to hear You whisper to my heart–I am Yours, Your grace is perfected in my weakness, when trouble comes as it always does, my teeny, tiny, mustard seed of faith, of belief, in You can see me through. I just have to hold on. Amen.

Matthew 17:20c …Nothing will be impossible for you.”

Have a blessed day. I love you.

I am here. You are not alone. I am with you. Always…. (devo reflection)

Matthew 28:16-17 Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. 

Today I want to focus on Matthew 28:20, the last part of the verse: “And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” Jesus says this to the disciples after His arrest, after their denial and betrayal, after His crucifixion and resurrection, after He sends them out in His name. He has already been with them through all of these trials. He knows that what He is asking of them now–Go and make disciples of all nations–will involve even more trials, and He promises to be with them. Always. No matter what.

Matthew 28:18 Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 

Just like every human on the planet, my life has had its ups and downs. There have been times when nothing made any sense, my pain, anger, and bitterness were through the roof, there were no answers, there seemed to be little comfort. I was angry and bereft. And in my darkest times, when I felt nothing but the pain and hurt, when I desperately wanted answers that weren’t mine to have, Jesus sat with me in that silence, whispering to my heart, “I am here. You are not alone. I am with you. Always.”

Matthew 28:19-20a Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you.

Lord, I want answers, comfort, smooth paths. You don’t promise any of that. You promise to be with me. Always. In my doubt, in my fear, in my pain and questioning. Thank You for understanding that I need You more than I need anything else. Thank You for helping me to learn that truth as well. You are with me. Always. You are all I need. Amen.

Matthew 28:20b  And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

Have a blessed day. I love you.