2 Corinthians 8:2 In the midst of a very severe trial, their overflowing joy and their extreme poverty welled up in rich generosity.
For reasons I don’t understand, I have a problem with giving (and sometimes sharing). Not with gift giving per se—somehow in my brain that’s different—with the giving of money or resources. It makes no sense, and yet it is frustratingly real.
2 Corinthians 8:3 For I testify that they gave as much as they were able, and even beyond their ability. Entirely on their own….
I have a physical reaction—my breathing becomes faster and more shallow, my heart rate speeds up, I just feel…icky in my skin—hyper alert and anxious. I assume it is a scarcity mindset issue—if I give something away and end up needing it, then I won’t have it. Panic! Panic! Regardless, I hate it and know God is once again calling my attention to this stronghold that needs to be given over to Him.
2 Corinthians 8:5 And they exceeded our expectations: They gave themselves first of all to the Lord, and then by the will of God also to us.
Lord, I love You and recognize that all that I have is Yours. My irrational reaction to giving and sharing is so frustrating. Help me to drag this issue into Your light and surrender it to You so that I can feel Your peace in this area as well. Please help me, Lord. Amen.
2 Corinthians 8:7 But since you excel in everything—in faith, in speech, in knowledge, in complete earnestness and in the love we have kindled in you—see that you also excel in this grace of giving.
Have a blessed day.