Called and equipped…. (devo reflection)

Ezekiel 3:7 But the people of Israel are not willing to listen to you because they are not willing to listen to me, for all the Israelites are hardened and obstinate.
Commentary points out that Jeremiah and Ezekiel are equipped in much different ways. Ezekiel is made with an edge to stand up to these rebellious people. Jeremiah has a much softer heart. Yet God made them both exactly as He needed them for the work He had for them to do. How many times have I been frustrated or upset because of the way God made me? Lord, Forgive me. You created me exactly as I am for a purpose.
Ezekiel 3:8 But I will make you as unyielding and hardened as they are.
I find it fascinating that God equipped Ezekiel specifically for this calling yet He still reminded Ezekiel (again) not to be afraid or terrified of them (v9). Seems like part of the equipping would remove the fear. I also find it interesting that in verse 14, Ezekiel has bitterness and anger in his spirit. Why? He wants God to use him. He feels God’s presence. He is equipped by God for this calling. I think I’m relieved that the ancient prophets struggled with these same fleshly emotions I wrestled with today.
Ezekiel 3:9 I will make your forehead like the hardest stone, harder than flint. Do not be afraid of them or terrified by them, though they are a rebellious people.”
Lord, Thank You for knowing my heart. Thank You for showing up where I am, for calling me and equipping me for Your purpose. Forgive me my doubts, anger, fear. Thank You for the comfort of knowing I’m not alone in these emotions. Let Your love drive out all else. Draw me closer. Amen.
Ezekiel 3:14 The Spirit then lifted me up and took me away, and I went in bitterness and in the anger of my spirit, with the strong hand of the Lord on me.
Have a blessed day.